Another jerk to remember

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bonfire88 : Everyone's Journey Starts With The First Step

City	tucson Arizona		Smoker?	No
Sign	Virgo		Ethnicity	Caucasian with no hair
Height	5' 7" (170 cm)		Body Type	Average
Age	37 year old Man		Religion	Non-Religious
Relationship	N/A		Chemistry	View his chemistry results

This is the first message this guy ever sent me, and, he was the one who initiated contact:

is it true you are into bdsm? would you like a guy who is into that also?

My profile does not say I am into bdsm, but, it does say that I am interested in a long term relationship. Unfortunately, I cannot find my reply to him, but, it was something about how whether or not I like the man would have to do with his personality, not his sexual kinks - unless, they were really gross ones - as personality is what you will be dealing with most of the time.

His response was something about how he thought I'd be into kinky stuff that was fun.

RE:RE:RE:Hi I'm all for kinky stuff, that is fun - with the person I marry, if, indeed, I ever do that, again. ... I would have replied to him, today, except:

You have been blocked by this user. Find someone else... Return to your inbox

My ID is MarriageWanted. So far, two guys have contacted me and they both are looking for sex. Weird!

Sylphie
It doesn’t really look very similar, at all, but I do like the end result and I did have fun.

There was a painting featured on Red Bubble, sometime in early September, I think, called Menage a Trios. I was inspired by the style, if not the subject, and so gave a go at painting something in a similar way.

The Hills In Morning

Alternatively: The Hills In Mourning.  Depends on how you feel on the day you view it, I guess. Might write something interesting later. Like a poem or something, I mean. This is very mixed media - three different art programs, oil paint, chalk, marker, sketch pencil

Due to ever changing blogs in other places ...

Due to ever changing blogs in other places ...

... even the ones you pay for .. I have decided to make an honest attempt to settle down in one place, where it is fairly unlikely the site is going to go under, financially; or, that some jealous older woman who runs the site will gang up on me, with her friends, and, start deleting my artwork, journal posts, etc.; and, where it is far less likely my posts will be deleted just for me expressing an honest opinion regarding .. oh, anything, really.

In part, this is going to be a dumping ground for all the other blogs that I attempted to create, over the years, which are still available. Why? Because, a sense of the past is helpful, both to me and to anyone who is attempting to get to know me. Because, there should be a balance between what is the main subject (bdsm) and life in general, to give a well-rounded view of who a person is. Besides which, I still like the writing, artwork, photos, etc.

So, that is your fair warning. If you attempt to read this blog, you will be inundated by religious opinion and fact, good advice on bdsm, thoughts on how to decorate a room, descriptions of dinner cooked, bad poetry, great writing (and, sometimes, great poetry, bad writing, I guess), artwork, fun, sadness, annoyance, and, love. Be prepared.

Old information, from various places

Old information

This is my last profile on CM (BBWDOM4MARRIAGE being the ID):

As I just wrote to a s-type, "At any point you care to try again, send me the photo, as requested, and, we shall see. It makes no sense to prefer to send it somewhere else, as compared to here. Especially when you've already seen mine.  I've been very open, very up front, about who I am, past and present. It's not my fault that Support saw fit to delete those journal entries, after a while. They were there, with ample proof of me being real. It's not wrong to expect a little proof, in return."

Obviously some of that only applies to him, but, I think you get the gist of what I am saying to him. As to the sharing, which has been torn down, I shall build it up, again. Between my journal entries, profile, forum posts, and, other things that I am quite willing to show most anybody, I am quite capable and willing to prove I exist, enough for anyone's needs, outside of those who know me well enough and are ready to take steps that mean we both need background checks, anyway.

I have a rambling journal entry that explains things in more detail. Basically, I am looking for someone who will serve me, or otherwise prove they can make my life better by their presence in it, for 3 -6 months, in a chaste relationship that may lead, if we are compatible, to a very unchaste marriage.

I have no interest in abusing anyone, but, a good, healthy relationship, where the man is dominant (to me) in ways that allow me to be myself, while fulfilling his needs, or, who wants to submit to me, in a way that allows me to be myself, is fine. I'm talking about the seeking of love, respect, honorable intentions, monogamy, sweet nothings in the ear, and, wild passion at the heart. 

Don't come at me with your usual icky b.s.  Love means never kicking your partner in the ribs and calling them filthy names, before crapping on them. If you don't believe that, it's your business. Go disbelieve it in someone else's inbox.

My suggestion is you do read my journal entry (or, entries, as they come along), as you will be quizzed on them. Also, be prepared to prove you are real.This will require special photos or videos, maybe phone conversations, maybe meeting with friends who are local to you (if you are not local to me), so, don't contact me, if you do not have those capabilities. 

Anyone who is annoying, will be blocked. This includes bisexuals, sissies, etc. as it says in my journal entry that I am not seeking you. If you have anything to say to me, do it in the forum, or, leave it be. My inbox is for corresponding with potentials or friends already of my acquaintance.

http://www.okcupid.com/quizzy/results?quizzyid=10012617203465641702&userid=14372685732799740543

Question:

Hello, Why oh why would you post all that unnecessary and out-dated information on your profile/journals? You have just gone way way over the top trying to prove yourself! It just looks ridiculous!

Answer:

It has nothing to do with trying to prove myself, or, proving myself in fact, either. Ridiculousness is in the eye of the beholder. To me, a profile of an alleged dominant, that cannot follow a basic rule of politeness, as is a rule of this site, looks ridiculous.

Especially when ostentatious or overt displays of sexuality are usually a sign of someone juvenile, who is incapable of forming fully adult, as in actually mature, relationships. However, I was polite enough not to tell you so, unbidden and uninvited.

Kindly keep your opinions out of my inbox. Some people are enjoying those links, as they were intended.

Goodbye.

Now, outside of that answer, there is this one: What I posted was links to places where there are things I have written, artwork I have created, and, opinions and thoughts I have shared.

Creations of an artist do not become invalid for having matured a few years since, and, opinions are only invalid if they are changed.

 I am still me, the same me I have always been, but, ever so much more so.

Therefore, if you want to know me better (as some people have requested to do) you couldn't find a better way to do it, than to read what I have written, view what I have drawn and painted, and, see the interactions between myself and others, both more currently and in the past.

You want to know about me, do you, slave boy? Take a look:

My old MCN profile:
http://www.motorcyclenews.com/MCN/community/Profile/?&user-id=3100156

An old site I made for an old Yahoo group I used to belong to:
http://www.angelfire.com/scifi2/pub_archives/index.html (pretty_ak was me) The site is kind of messed up, after all these years. At least the 'Singing in the Rain' strip is, which sucks as I worked so hard at making it.

Old posts on Matchdoctor.com:
http://webcache.googleusercontent.com/search?q=cache:KuLFMdmpZrIJ:www.matchdoctor.com/thread_17_6043_1/Alaska.html+blueyedwonderkin&cd=5&hl=en&ct=clnk&gl=us&source=www.google.com
(blueyedwonderkin is me)

An old myspace profile:
http://webcache.googleusercontent.com/search?q=cache:dtgMOq9FpZcJ:www.myspace.com/boingytwigs+blueyedwonderkin&cd=11&hl=en&ct=clnk&gl=us&source=www.google.com
Yes boingytwigs, Deshi, and, blueyedwonderkin were all nicknames and IDs for me, at one point or another.

A little insight into the thoughts of blueyedwonderkin:
http://webcache.googleusercontent.com/search?q=cache:-zeeVxtcZBUJ:www.sodahead.com/entertainment/girls-with-tattoos-hot-or-not/question-153521/+blueyedwonderkin&cd=21&hl=en&ct=clnk&gl=us&source=www.google.com

And, even more of it:
http://webcache.googleusercontent.com/search?q=cache:1uSuqFmF95oJ:www.matchdoctor.com/blog_37644/Religion_and_Me.html+blueyedwonderkin&cd=22&hl=en&ct=clnk&gl=us&source=www.google.com

Old Flixster profile:
http://www.flixster.com/user/blueyedwonderkin

Older photos of me, from around 2006- 2008








Another old myspace profile:

http://www.myspace.com/the_mad_hatters/blog/217341493

An old piece of art:


And, another older piece:


One of my old "Deshi" profiles, that still exists:
http://webcache.googleusercontent.com/search?q=cache:Hq-WdN8zpm8J:www.thoughts.com/Deshi/profile+Deshi+Wilde&cd=5&hl=en&ct=clnk&gl=us&source=www.google.com

Me, quoted in the Urban Dictionary:
http://www.urbandictionary.com/define.php?term=butt-release

A review of me, or my book, or both:
http://www.helium.com/items/168582-writer-profile-twiggums-0shea
Twiggums O'Shea is a name that was given to me by my dear friend, of 12 years or so, whom I call Winelope.

My newer Matchdoctor.com profile (only one I have, now, by the way, as they delete things when they say they will):
http://www.matchdoctor.com/profile_HopelesslyHopeful.html

So, that'll give you something to think about, if it stays around. xx

The house that would not be bought

I'm in the midst of buying a house; except, if you asked my sister, she would probably assure you that I was on the periphery of buying a house and she was in the midst of it. However you want to put it, the house is being bought, and, it's a big, big, crazy step, fraught with peril.

Currently, the peril comes in the form of HUD vs The City of Tucson, in an all out battle for supremacy over all things utility. Which is to say that the City of Tucson says that they must pass approval on the house before they will turn the electricity on. Now, this would be fine, except that we know the house is missing some minor (to us), yet, crucial (to them) bits that might mean it will not pass the inspection, even if everything else is all the way skippy dory.Which would also be fine, if we could simply nip out, purchase them, install them, and, get on with the day. However, we cannot. Enter the dreaded opponent, HUD.

We are not allowed to make even a slight alteration on the house, before it is purchased; not even to get it inspected. HUD will not make an alteration on it. Which leaves us at, probably, having to take the house without an inspection.

Strangely, I am okay with this. I have faith that the house is the right house, and, all will turn out well. And, with all the cost of inspection, de-winterizing, re-winterizing, de-winterizing again, turning on the utilities, turning off the utilities again, turning back on the utilities, we would save enough money by not getting it inspected to cure whatever ills might crop up. Unless, of course, all the pipes needed replacing. Even so, the next best house in price is still $20,000.00 more. This is a small place -I don't think there could be $20,000.00 worth of repairs needed, without it being somewhat visible to the naked eye. There is a broken drawer in the kitchen, yes. It is not a $20,00.00 drawer, however, and, the wee holes in some of the doors and walls are not $20,000.00 worth of damage, altogether, even including the drawer.

I think it will all be fine.  And, the electric company and the gas company do their own inspection of things, so, that takes care of the majority of what needs inspecting. Plus, one of us, the people who will be living there, has a relative who is in construction, so he can help us determine if anything is wrong, and, if there is anything, he can help us figure out what to do about it.

Now, the main dilemma is, can I get my sister to believe that? Which, she indicated she is likely to believe it, earlier today. I think, mainly, because she is tired of dealing with b.s. about the house, and, she just wants to get it signed and over with.

I would show you pictures of the house, but, I don't want you rushing in and offering them more money. So, I might let you see it, after all the papers are signed!